Closed Chapters...

Recently, God shared something with me that I thought was so dope. He said, stop chasing after chapters I've already closed. This was right on time for me because in this temporary quarantine season, I've struggled with attention seeking. This idea of feeling like I need a guy to talk to or that I need to be entertained. I would start searching and thinking about if I should connect with people from my past. I would consider trying to connect with these people just for temporary satisfaction. A talking buddy. Someone to flirt with here and there and maybe reminisce a little with but with no guarantee of a future. Just temporary attention.

When God revealed to me that I was meddling in closed chapters, it made me take a step back and think about why I was doing it. I realized two things: One, that I immediately reverted to old ways. In the past, when I was bored and didn't have any 'prospects' I would seek them out, regardless of if they were good for me. Two, it showed me that I need to be more determined to make time for God daily. I think sometimes when I start to yearn for attention like this or feel lonely, it really means that I need more time with the Father. I start to carve out time for Jesus and I feel better after and those feelings slowly dissipate. In our time together, He reminds me how much He loves me, that His plans are to prosper me, and I don't have to worry about anything.

I can't say that it's always so easy for me. I still struggle with spending time with God daily but I've tried to be better at listening to that nudge or urge telling me I need more time with the Father and not just when my emotions are out of whack. I think that makes us better all-around when we choose to spend as much time as we can with Jesus each day. When I am consistent, little things don't bother me as much. I have way more patience and I find that I am much more positive about situations I face because my faith has increased. Most importantly, He reminds me that He closed those chapters for a reason. Let's not dwell in the past and try to add on to finished stories but choose to focus on the here and now. I believe that if God has called you to be connected to that person, He will make the connection and it will be effortless and not forced.

I want to encourage you to let God write your story. Follow His lead on who you should connect with and who you should move on from. Give Him complete control and trust that He always has your best interests at heart.