Focus...

I've got to say...sometimes I look up and wonder: "God, am I focused on the right things?". Occasionally, I'll get concerned that I'm completely off the track God desires for me to be on. Like, randomly, I'll think that I've missed the mark. That there must be something I should be doing right now. Something big.

Social media plays a huge role in why I think like this. I'll see my peers and family members doing big things in ministry, with their families or wherever and I'll start to wonder if I too am supposed to be doing huge things and I'm just not paying attention to what God is saying. You ever feel this way? Like you're stagnant while everyone else is just exploding in their purpose? It can get you down. I know I've been down just thinking about it. I'll wonder why everyone around me seems to be growing while I'm just stuck.

God's timing, girl. God's timing. I have to remember God's timing is so much different than my own and the world’s. He doesn't work like I want Him to or move when I'm feeling desperate to do big things. A few things that I'm learning as I'm typing this and when I've had these feelings:

1. My success is not measured by what I deem successful. What I see on social media is not always reality. Furthermore, just because I see others being successful or what I deem successful does not automatically mean I've failed because I haven't achieved the same goals.

2. Consistency in Christ is success! What I failed to mention above is that I set a goal for myself year before last (at the end of 2019) that I would be consistent in spending time with Christ daily and I have. I've made it a habit spend my mornings with Christ journaling since then and I love our time together. In this season, I’ve learned so much from God and I can see Him working on me and preparing me for what He has next. That is success!

3. My process does not look like those around me. If we were all in the same season with the same process moving within the same timeline then it would make sense to see the success the of everyone at the same time all the time, however, that is just impossible and nor realistic. My calling is different than the calling of my peers and the process that I go through to receive and do all that God has for me is not the same as those around me. I must learn not to compare my process to others and praise God for the success of others around me and how He is preparing me for all that He has.

I've got to change my perspective on what I deem success and how I view my life. I think it's really important to value all seasons that God put's us through in our lives. Even the hardest ones because there is always something to learn there. We must cherish all seasons, even the quiet ones. God is still moving in those still seasons. Lastly, I think it's SO important to connect with Christ when we're feeling stagnant and ask Him if we are in position. God, am I focusing on the right things in this season? If I'm off track, pull me back in Lord. If I'm being distracted, remove the distractions, and get me back in line with your will. I want to do what you've called me to in this season.